36-Me, Myself, and My Reverberations

Jim Dunlop Nylon Standard Pick .60mm

那時快三十歲,於我是一個忐忑不安的年齡,年紀既不小又不大,生活漸趨隱固成型,卻感到熱血的心在慢慢冷卻。就在某個下班的傍晚,我走進了居所附近的一個音樂教室,說我要報名學吉他。那一刻起,我便沒有想過把吉他丟下。

我深知,在這個年紀才開始起步學習一種樂器,已經太晚了,但一想到可以親手彈奏音樂已是無比的幸福,我便有了覺悟,我不需要替自己設定任何嚴苛的目標,說不定抱著這樣相對輕鬆的心態,便能一直彈下去。

然而在這漫長的過程中,說完全沒有動過放棄念頭是騙人的,成年人學習樂器本來是困難重重的事,吸收能力下降,記憶力減弱,加上作為一個身心俱疲的全職上班族根本無法騰出些微的時間來練習,蹺課是常有之事,在音樂這個講求天賦才華的領域面前,得到的結果往往是不得其門而入。我目睹了大多同期的學生都終止了學習,要麼是天份不錯可以自行揣摩,要麼是停滯不前然後無疾而終。

I was turning 30 – the age of anxiety. Neither young nor old, I was at the intersection of settling down and feeling jaded. One evening after work, I walked into a music studio and signed up for guitar lessons. I’ve never looked back since then.

I knew very well that I was rather too old for music lessons, but the thought of being able to make music brought me so much joy – that’s when I understood: I didn’t have to set myself any exorbitant goals. All I had to do was keep playing guitar.

Yet I’d be lying if I said I’d never thought of quitting on this guitar journey. It’s hard enough for adults to take up an instrument, with hurdles such as an aging brain, and a busy schedule for those who have a full-time job. Skipping lessons, or practice, is not uncommon. Where music demands innate talent, one could find it a challenge to compensate the lack thereof. On my own journey I’ve witnessed a handful of people quitting, either because they were talented enough to teach themselves, or because they’d had their share of setbacks.

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我的吉他老師說,我已是他學生中學得最久的一個,聽者有愧,我不堪的技術想必讓老師臉上無光。他有時反過來安慰我:「很多人三五年已經放棄了,像你這種要朝九晚五上班的人,堅持了這麼久已很難得。」但我寧願他狠狠罵我。說到底,高齡學生才是最需要練習的一群,任何樂器要玩得好從來只有不斷練習這條唯一的路徑。

學了一個和弦,又要學它的延伸變化音;勉強記得了一個指板,又要開始記另一個……而長年用手指彈奏木吉他的我,有天突然要換成使用吉他撥片,更一度無法適應,像奔走的人被打回原狀學走路,每一回克服的困難總是迎來了另一個關口。老師終於看不過眼,找出一塊私藏的Jim Dunlop 0.6mm撥片相贈,說:「薄的撥片對初學者來說比較容易上手,因為它的彈性使你感到與弦線的阻力減少了許多。不過請記得,無論厚或薄,對一個好的樂手來說是不礙事的。」

Much to my embarrassment, my guitar teacher told me that I was his longest standing protégé. I thought I must have let him down, but he consoled me, “Most people would quit after three to five years. That you persevere despite your nine-to-five job is really impressive,” But I’d rather be chastened than defeated. After all, hard work is paramount to mature students – it is especially so when it comes to learning an instrument.

There is no shortage of things to master or memorise: a tension chord follows a chord; one fretboard follows another. For someone like me who’s used to playing with fingers, the use of a guitar pick could feel like a huge step back and take quite a bit of adjusting. For every hurdle overcome, there’s always another waiting to be challenged. Having seen enough of my struggle, one day my teacher gifted me his Jim Dunlop 0.6mm pick, and said, “Thinner picks are easier for beginners; their flexibility allows you to strum hard without much resistance from the strings. But please remember: the thickness of the pick should not matter to a good guitar player,”

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Jim Dunlop是60年代起在美國專注生產吉他撥片、效果器等吉他裝備的廠牌,至今依然自豪地僅以此為主要業務。單以撥片來說,各款型號已發展成蔚為壯觀的完整系譜,是世上數一數二精良的吉他器具。其中於1981年面世的招牌「Tortex」系列使用類近聚甲醛塑料的物質,相對耐磨並使音色保有足夠清晰度,從0.5mm到1.14mm有六個厚度,每個之間只相差0.1mm左右,帶出具有差別的細緻音質。至於我擁有的灰色撥片是屬於「Nylon」系列,其尼龍材質相對軟弱而光滑,音色雖不鏗鏘,卻非常適合刷弦彈奏。撥片的厚度、形狀、韌度和大小,看似微不足道的細節隨時在影響一個吉他手的手法和風格。

「我日後應該可以更隨心所欲地使用撥片彈奏吧。」不知是哪裡來的天真傻勁,或許也該慶幸自己性格有不喜歡半途而廢的特性,讓後來在自己最一蹶不振的日子裡,至少有一把吉他相伴左右。每當心神恍惚得思考的精力都耗盡,只有夜裡手中的吉他是如此真實,那並不是早已錄好的音軌,而是活生生的,從吉他音箱中發出共振的,可以安撫靈魂的聲音。

Founded in the 60’s, Jim Dunlop is a proud specialist in guitar accessories from picks to pedals. Take their industry-standard picks, which come in a full spectrum of styles. First released in 1981, the Tortex is made of Delrin, which is highly durable with great memory and just the right amount of flexibility for a snappy, fluid attack that’s bright and crisp. It comes in six degrees of thickness ranging from 0.5mm to 1.14mm. With only a 0.1mm difference between each type, the Tortex series represents the full spectrum of sound quality. The one I have is the Nylon Standard Pick in grey, which bends easier than the Tortex. The sound is less clear and defined, but what it lacks in sonic texture, it makes up for in flexibility for strumming. From thickness and shape to flexibility and size, a little difference goes a long way to influencing a player’s style and technique.

“I can play more freely with this new pick!” I don’t know where that naivety came from, but I probably should be glad that I’m not a quitter, so that at my lowest, I can still turn to my guitar. On nights where I’m not feeling myself, or when I’m exhausted from thinking, the guitar in my hands feels even more real. It’s not pre-recorded music; it’s music that’s alive, that’s comfort, emanating from the amplifier – from me.

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